September 3

Queer Wolf, edited by James RM Rasmussen

The Queer Wolf collection kicks off with “Wolf Strap” by Naomi Clark. Ayla gave up a lot to be a lesbian, like her entire family, who raised her to believe her role was to get married and pop out a lot more werewolves for the good of the species. But when a child, a member of her family pack, is killed she and her partner Shannon head back to her childhood home. Its clear that things have changed since she left, but how much have they changed in this city where the human and wolves used to live in peace? The only flaw in “Wolf Strap” is that it’s too short. The plot and setting could have held a full novel and while the pacing doesn’t feel rushed it’s hard not to want more of everything Clark has to offer.

“Moon Sing” by Laramie Dean is a beautiful love story between a wolf and a witch. Acting as a metaphor for being queer in a straight world, even Drew’s pack can’t accept him falling for someone not of the Breed. It doesn’t have much plot outside the romance, but that alone is taken to a haunting, yearning level that’s purely magnificent.

“Wolf Lover” by Michael Itig is a cruder, more raw, sex-centered tale of fetishism and, of course, werewolves. Nige is an impatient, sex-charged gay man with a passion, shall we say, for werewolves. So much so that he lures them to his home and tricks them into shape shifting during sex. But the man he meets at a club for those trolling for werewolf hook ups turns out to be something else altogether. “Wolf Lover”gives readers a more raw look at the psyche of a gay man, but doesn’t feel cliché, preachy or stereotypical in the end.

“Shy Hunter” by Ginn Hale centers on David, scent dog and queer man, and not sure how to balance the two. Until he falls for a man who is being stalked by the monster who attacked David and turned him into a werewolf. This is another excellent tale, with equal parts action, emotion and mystery.

Anel Viz’s “The Stray” is the lightest tale of the book so far, making nearly every canine joke and pun, without being completely cheesy as it tells the story of a couple making a major commitment to each other.

“New Beginnings” by Cari Z focuses on the only pack that accepts gay wolves in this paranormal world and a bitter curmudgeon of a wolf, Michael, who finds himself attracted to and depended on by their newest rescue. But exile wasn’t enough for Tori’s family. They want him dead and Michael must keep him safe in this action-adventure-romance.

Jerome Stueart’s “Where the Sled Dogs Run” is another lighter tale, focusing less on the romance angle and more on creating a sweet sense of wonder. In this story the werewolves are a group of shamans, immortal, reluctant and shy, who want to reconnect with the world around them rather than hide from it, but they don’t know how. It fits the anthology, but it could have been found in a number of other fantasy-themed magazines just as easily.

“Pavlov’s Dog” by Andi Lee shifts straight back to hardcore erotica, and is nothing but. This tale is all set up, Josh and Caleb have just been approved to start their own pack and decide to celebrate. It’s not bad, there just isn’t much story to it.

Charlie Cochrane’s “Wolves of the West” is the most civilized story of the book, a tale of a pack that meets in an English museum for what is far from a mess of drooling, carnivorous monsters. Here Rory and George, who put the pack together and have run it for quite some time, work to create a haven for both their fellow queers and werewolves and must work to keep certain indiscretions from public light. It’s an amusing, but meaningful addition to the collection’s theme.

“Family Matters” by Moondancer Drake is another example of a solid piece, featuring a lynx and wolf lesbian family and pack, that feels less like a short story and more like an opening to a book. This piece could easily be stretched and expanded, in fact there are fight scenes that are glanced over and while werebadgers, lynxes, Fae and witches are all mentioned they aren’t very fleshed out. Drake is a good writer though, so one can only hope more than this story comes from her world.

In “Wrong Turn” by Stephen Osborne a young gay man finds more than he bargained for when he stops at a bar for directions and a drink and ends up smack in the middle of a werewolf tift. This falling in love story is simple and sweet, with a wrap up that seems to come too soon.

“Leader of the Pack” by Robert Saldarini is a historical werewolf tale, told by flashback, about a pair of men who survived World War II. Being steeped in the time period adds a weight of interest and credibility, but again, the tale’s flaw is its brevity.

“War of the Wolves” by Charles Long is the first to include (by a brief mention) an intersexual character. This tale also takes a more fantasy-angled approach, embedding a strong sense of the surreal into a story of people coming together, not just trying to find their place in the world, but willing to fight for it.

Lucas Johnson’s “Flip City”is a more traditional horror take on werewolves, a cliched take, unfortunately. The first real hiccup in the book the lead is not gay, so much as a borderline rapist and killer. Luckily the speed of this one is stuck on fast forward, burning through the story with little depth.

In “Night Swimming” by RJ Bradshaw, Joseph is indulging in a secret night swim when a wild-living werewolf finds him. They catch scents and Todd, the wild-wolf insists that he can smell that they are meant to be lifemates, and also proposes that they begin their life together by spending half the year in the city and winter helping Todd’s pack in the woods. After some thought Joseph agrees, they hash out the details, and unfortunately that’s all there is to this tale.

“In the Seeonee Hills” by Erica Hildebrand leads with a lesbian who contracted lycanthopy from a lover who got a bit too rough in bed. Claire is new to the paranormal world and caught between two packs who want to use her for ill means. It’s part Romeo & Juliet and part something all it’s own. Like some of the other tales there is room for more expansion, but it doesn’t feel unfinished or sped up for the sake of the short story form.

“A Wolf’s Moon” by Quinn Smythwood is certainly different. But three pages in I had no real clue what was going on or what the characters were hinting at, which left me feeling completely disconnected from the story and the characters. A depressingly weak end to this collection of tales.

Overall, there is a lot of good in Queer Wolf. It manages to represent the scope of urban fantasy, from a queer angle, though it leans heavily toward m/m paranormal romance. I really would have liked to see more f/f or even a transgender or bisexual story or two. From a genre point of view I’d have liked to see more mystery, traditional fantasy and even horror-based tales. But that’s what second volumes are for.

August 31

Devil’s Marionette by Maurice Broaddus

ISBN: 9780981989419

I have a mental list of movies I’ve seen, and I don’t regret seeing them, but I never want to see them again. What Dreams May Come, Philadelphia, A.I and Funny Games all have their places on this list. Slowly I’m forming a list of books that I’ve enjoyed and would recommend, but never I want to read again. Devil’s Marionette by Maurice Broaddus is definitely edging its way onto this list.

There’s nothing technically wrong with this novella about the cast of a black skit show/sitcom descending into madness. The characters are raw, pain-filled and clear and the story itself is unfurled with the casual unstopablility of an oncoming freight train.

But there’s a weight here that threatens to crush the reader as well as the characters.

Broaddus’s novella starts right at the end of things and offers little in the way of background, or explanation, instead focusing on each individual breakdown of an otherwise talented and intelligent black cast. The crew aren’t being crushed by the white network bigwig (despite his efforts at dominating them), though, it’s their own connection to parasitic performers of the past that pulls them into more than personal darkness. Here it feels like the odds are so astoundingly set against them that defying the curse of the black performer is like trying to defy the laws of physics.

Yet despite this immersive, and painfully open experience of being each character as hundreds of years of hatred and racism crushes down on them, the reader is left with the same feeling as someone who witnesses something beautiful or terribly in a quiet woods. It’s almost as if this pain is clear and known, but we are not supposed to speak of it, or even admit that we know it’s there.

The aura or spirit of this book far out shadows the actual story within the pages. It’s left me feeling not thrilled, or entertained, but uneasy, a perfect tone for a horror novella to strike, but one not that makes experiencing it an entirely pleasant experience.

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August 28

Hannah’s Story: Vampire Love Never Dies by Giulietta Maria Spudich

Reviewed for MonsterLibrarian.com

iUniverse, 2009

ISBN: 9781440135026

Available: New and Used

Hannah, a woman barely out of her teens, arrives in Cambridge to attend school, but she is also fleeing her past. After recovering from the pain of being abandoned by her boyfriend, Bret, Hannah began to realize just how abusive and manipulative their relationship had been. Since Bret was a vampire, and she narrowly escaped becoming one herself, Hannah recognizes that the break up was possibly the best thing to have happened to her so far. But Bret isn’t

quite done with Hannah yet.

This book is short—it covers more than a year in about 130 pages—but this is by no means a starved plot. Although there is room for fleshing it out, the story is well-paced and focused There are some small technical problems, likely because this is a debut book, but there is a lot to recommend. Although this is a vampire book, the author spends a fair amount of time on Hannah’s trying to resist the urge to blame herself for having been caught in an abusive situation and deal with her feelings of worthlessness that stem from her part in the relationship she had with Bret. The vampire aspect is so light it can easily be taken for a metaphor as well, making this book less about vampires and more about a teen recovering from an abusive relationship.

The YA and abuse recovery focus makes this an excellent addition to teen libraries, private and public, and Hannah’s Story could even be a gateway into helping adults talk to teens and tweens about abusive relationships. Recommended.

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August 28

What I’m up to

-Writing

I’m writing again, trying to finish already begun projects before starting more. I’m still adjusting to my new schedule, and other things (many listed in the “personal” section of this update).

-BookLove

I started out August with three weeks of reviews done, edited and posted, pending publication. Now I’m ending the month with a week’s advance cushion space. It’s been that kind of month, no, it’s been that kind of year.

-Personal

I am on the edge of some massive personal changes. I’ve already talked about some of the ongoing “projects” in my life, like our housing troubles, new schools all around, job shifts and I’ve got a few things going on that I’m just not going to talk about in a public forum.

Well here’s the other part. Now that both kids are in school I’m looking at where my life goes from here. I have an eight hour block to myself five days a week and I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about what to do with it.

The sad, sad choice is that it’s simply irresponsible of me to think that I can be a stay-at-home writer at this point in my career. I’m starting to have some success, definitely, but it’s not coming close to paying the bills, or even offering more than a nice dinner out with the family, and maybe a trip to the bookstore.

My choices now are to say fuck it, I believe in myself and I’m willing to risk everything on the slim chance that someday in the future I’ll be able to support myself, and my family with my writing. Beside there being nothing even resembling a clear pay off to this method, especially with as turbulent as publishing and the economy are there’s not even enough forward progress at this point. There’s the opportunity for forward progress, but I’m already taking advantage of it the best I feel I can so a big block of writing time just doesn’t seem like the best use of my time.

One of the things I don’t speak about often is that my husband has a spine injury and while it’s managed most days right now chances are very high he’ll get to learn how to use a wheelchair in the next ten to fifteen years. I don’t know if any of you have tried to live off disability, but I know people who have and it’s not going to cut it for a family of four.

Which brings me to the prospect of getting a job, and it’s accompanying problem, I haven’t had a job since I had to quit working at Subway due to pregnancy problems with my now 9 year old son. That’s a long time to employers, and while I’ve got plenty of other experiences that I can use to my advantage most of them are only really applicable in the publishing/bookselling industry, which is in a tough place right now. If I could get a position, even a basic one, at a bookstore, it could be the start of something. But I don’t see what, other than a pay check, the kind of job I could get right now (and people have told me even thinking I can get a McDonald’s job these days is an over estimation on my part) would do to build not just a paycheck, but something I can support, or contribute to the support of my family with.

The point is that minimum wage jobs don’t support a family, and that’s my end goal. How do I jump from being a stay at home mom/special needs caretaker of 10 years to making a better than minimum wage, with the potential to completely support our family if the need arises?

So I’m considering going back to school as well. I already have one and a half years of credit, so there exists this potential for me to find a “career” (a “real” one because we all know the only career for me is writing) that won’t take a huge investment of time, but will still allow me to contribute to, and maybe even replace my husband’s paycheck if need be.Let’s just toss aside all issues about paying for school (which I can’t really do since we cannot afford a drain on the finances which is why all this is coming up anyway) I still don’t know what to go to school for, because I want to sell books, not get distracted by other things. But that’s just not happening right now.

So you see my circular musings here. There’s no bad answer, really, but there’s not exactly a clearly superior one either.

Plus I turn thirty next week, and the people I see around me have either thrown themselves into being as successful as possible or appear to be stumbling their way through life just reacting to things that they could have prevented or controlled or enjoyed if they’d planned, or thought things out.

I don’t want to be here, at this level of writing success, in ten years. I need to not be here because it will break me to spend so much time with nothing to show for it. I’m not talking about giving up writing, just the grind of publishing. I do feel that I have come pretty far in the last few years and I want to see that continue. I’m pretty sure it will, but I have to take advantage of the support, the time, and the good health we have now to try to decide how to set myself, and my family, up for more success as time goes on.

I guess it’s about doing the best I can, and while I love where I am now, publishing and career wise, if this is the best I can do then it doesn’t warrant an eight hour a day/five day a week work habit.

Oh yes, and if you follow me on Twitter you’ll notice something else–I’m learning to drive for the first time and both intimidated and complete silly-feeling about the whole thing. It’s a ridiculous combination of feelings about something that so many people learn to do as teens. But it sort of reminds me of my silly reaction to going on the birth control pill. It was a year after my daughter was born and my first thought was “OMG I’m not responsible enough to be on birth control and remember to take a pill every day.”

Go ahead, laugh at the incredible silliness of a woman with TWO kids thinking being on birth control is all responsible and adult like. I know I laughed at myself a lot over it.

So I’ll leave you there for tonight, because it’s pretty clear I have more thinking and growing to do.

August 26

Library Aid

I’ve moved information on donating to the Louisville Free Public Library’s Flood Aid to a page on the side bar. Again, I want to thank everyone who has contributed and passed the information on.

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