June 20

My own gender experiments

There’s a been some talk lately in the usual circles about gender equality in genre fiction. It’s not a new argument and it’s not east to find, particularly if you look up SFSignal’s recent Mindmeld features. And in response there’s been some anger, but we’re all beyond tired of RaceFail and GenderFail and every other damn thing so that’s the not the point of this post, just the inspiration. Over the weekend I also saw a magazine/podcast of some sort putting out a public call for more women and minority writers to include in their interviews.

My first thought was, wait, you’ll pursue the men, but you want the women to come to you? Because I’ve done the same thing, asked for recommendations of minority and women-written and lead fiction and the silence was deafening. So I found it on my own, or did I?

I’ve spent the evening going through my shelves over on GoodReads to see how my reading habits stack up. I honestly couldn’t tell you whether I read more male or female writers because I don’t pay much attention, but I also know I read a lot of urban fantasy which is primarily female.

So, some disclaimers before I tell you what I found.

  • My numbers are flawed because I had to go by photos I could find to guess on the gender and minority status of authors. In some cases the name was a pseudonym and I couldn’t find anything about the author. In other cases the book was an anthology and I could confirm that there were both male and female contributors but couldn’t tell you what race the contributors were. Also, in a few cases I knew there were minority authors in the collection, but didn’t feel right even hinting at it in public because they aren’t “out”.
  • Books written by female authors got tagged as female author, books with male authors were tagged as male author. Books written by both, either with a pair sharing a pseudonym (like Ilona Andrews) or with male and female contributors were tagged with both. Books written by people who identify as female or male were tagged as the gender they identify as, whether they have “changed” or not (ie Zoe Whitten and Poppy Z. Brite)
  • I know before going in that there would be more books on the minority shelf if I include authors who write minority leads (Sara M. Harvey, Jennifer Pelland, Ann Aguirre and myself would all fit there, but despite what we write we’re all married white women.)
  • There’s also the complication of racial identity itself. Is “white” just the color of your skin or the part of the world your ancestors come from? Does a light skinned mixed person become white if they’re light enough? Are Jews and Italians white or minorities, seeing as I’ve met people of each who identify both ways. What about the Russian author whose book I read as a translation? His skin says white, his home says Asian. I didn’t even think about classifying non-Christians as minorities, because how would I know? And just where the hell do you put someone like Lavie Tidhar?

Those bewares aside, here’s how it broke down.

“Read” books: 361

Male Author: 202

Female Author: 180

Minority Author: 27

So yeah, it’s official. I suck.

My defense: I have a ton of “minority author books” that I’ve bought on my own time (I’m particularly salivating over some Serissa Glass and Octavia Butler that I’ve had since the beginning of the year) but have consistently pushed back (along with a lot of non-minority authors) in the reading queue because of the demands of reviewing. There’s also many on my wishlist (like S.P. Somtow’s entire back list) that I have been having trouble finding (and affording). And again, I think my list would darn near double if I included books with minority major characters written by non-minority writers.

Other observations:

  • Not once did I get to put “female author” on a graphic novel.
  • Only once did I get to put “female author” on an RPG book.
  • I’m probably wrong about both of those and just don’t have the inclination to look up all the contributors for all the RPG books and graphic novels to fix it.
  • If it hadn’t been for those sections and the nonfiction research books women writers would have “won”.
  • I have, however read a lot of fantasy by women. A LOT.
  • I don’t have a way to break the individual genres down by the gender of the writer, without spending another night or two doing it, but here’s my genre break down for reference: Children’s/Middle grade-44, Fantasy-53, Fiction Magazine-10, Graphic Novels-33, Horror/suspense-110, Manga- 4, Mystery-15, Nonfiction-8, Poetry-2 (I know this is wrong because I’ve read 4 of Ellen Hopkins’ poetry books and can name three other poetry books that should be on that shelf), Romance-13, RPGs-10, Science fiction-25, Urban Fantasy-80, YA-23 *Some books are on more than one shelf, particularly anthologies and magazines that contain multiple genres and YA books which could as YA and SF or F or UF or H).

 

What does this mean? Maybe nothing because I’m only one reader looking at my reading habits. Honestly thinking about it, I don’t see how I can ever keep even reads between male and female, minority and non. There just isn’t enough evenness in what’s being published in the first place.

 

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June 17

Did you mean “vanished”?

It’s no secret that I’ve been incredibly stressed and emotional lately. I’d be an idiot to think I’ve kept is well contained and that it hasn’t slipped out on Twitter, Facebook and here. After all when the biggest outlet you have is ranting online, how can it not?

So I’m unhappy with a lot of things in my life, and I know that it’s up to me to fix it, because it’s my life and only I can figure out what I want. The problem comes next and I have to sit here and admit–I don’t know how to fix it.

I’m often amazed at how the internet has affected my life. The other day I was trying to identify insects in my garden to make sure they weren’t going to kill off my plants, so I goggled “garden pests Louisville Kentucky”. I was trying to research a company I had never heard of that cold called me to offer job training so I googled their name and “complaints”. When I can’t remember a term while writing half the time I just google “voodoo” to find it. And who doesn’t google a word to see if google corrects your spelling?

The truth is I feel lost. Not exactly, because I know where I want to be,  I know what I have to offer. I know I have skills that can put me where I want to be. But I don’t know how to get there. It like I’m alone in my car on a city street with money for an emergency, and a full tank of gas, but I left the GPS at home and the directions just flew out the window. Worse, I’ve stopped three time for directions and each time I’ve been given different directions.

It’s no wonder I get overwhelmed and frustrated and confused.

Part of it comes from expecting my issues to be fixed with one action. Put in an application, get and interview get the job. It seems simple, but it’s not. And there are tons of factors I can’t control or overcome in my way. And the pressure is still on, spiking with every bill that arrives and remembering how much easier life was with just a stupid, easy little part time job in the mix isn’t helping.

It’s hard to take off the coat of frustration and desperation and panic that accumulates on you. It’s hard to keep thinking “Well at least I get to spend the summer with the kids” when it’s followed with “Too bad we can’t do anything because I’m broke.”

And sometimes you wonder if you really are, broken I mean. Which is why I let the emotion slip through and vent. And I know it’s made me a rather bitter person to be around lately. But there’s a distinct lack of outlets in my real life. Maybe it’s because people are tired of hearing it (well, I’m tired of feeling it), maybe it’s because people are helpless to do anything more than listen and that makes them uncomfortable. Maybe it’s because they’re afraid I’ll jinx them. Maybe it’s just because most of my friends are very often busy living their own lives and we intersect only at brief points in time.

I’m trying to make the best of things as I can. I’m trying to pursue gainful (steady) employment and not to let my woe and wangst spill out to the world around me. And I’m sucking at it apparently. But I’m going to keep trying and try to put out more positive than negative.

Because I hope, in my heart, that I’m not really lost, I’m just on an unplanned epic adventure in life.

June 14

Stuffs

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June 14

Haunting Blue by R.J. Sullivan

Damnation Books, 2010
ASIN: B004E9U7D8
Available: Trade paperback & multi-format e-book

Ghosts are one of the overlooked monsters of the paranormal out there these days, likely because it’s hard to make a ghost sexy (I mean, without totally ripping off the movie Ghost.) Luckily, RJ Sullivan doesn’t even try. Haunting Blue is a fun little horror novel about a blue-haired punk girl forced to move to small town Indiana who immediately gets tied up in the town’s big urban legend. It has a classic ghost story/urban legend feel, that escapes the trap of cliché, and is still very tantalizing. It’s also got the only climax at a theme park that I’ve enjoyed other than Zombieland.

Sullivan makes good use of his teen lead’s heavy mix of feelings and sense of worthlessness without making this an issue book. Also, the involvement of a geek hero and a D&D tabletop “date” scene amused me to no end. Haunting Blue is a solid read, it moves well, sweeping readers up in the heroine’s conflicts, be they mundane or ghostly. Recommended for sure, especially for readers looking for a good ghost story in a vampire and zombie world.

Contains: violence, language, sex

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June 14

Shady Lady by Ann Aguirre

Roc, 2011
ISBN: 0575093994
Available: New & multiformat digital

The third book in Ann Aguirre’s Corine Solomon series, Shady Lady expands the world setting (a curiously vampire-and-werewolf-free universe that still has plenty of magical conflict to spare) tenfold in this one volume. Home after defeating the demon that ran the town she grew up in (and had a hand in her mother’s death), Corine is ready to settle back into her role as a thrift shop owner and explore the new extent of her powers, gifted to her by mother postmortem. Then Kel, the mysterious killer who claims to be the Hand of God, shows up and tells her he’s there to protect her from a notorious Mexican cartel leader who is out for Corine’s blood.

Aguirre pulls no punches with this book. Her characters pop off the page, making the conflict all the more real, and her style brings so many places, from the streets of Mexico to the depths of the jungle to vivid life. (And the classic macho movie addition of a gun-laced chase scene shows girls can play with action tropes as well.) Aguirre’s books are the place to go for raw action and grit, threaded through with a sense of human tenderness. Highly recommended for public and private collections, especially those oriented toward paranormal or urban fantasy tastes, but this series also holds a strong appeal for readers who love a good action flick.

Contains: sex, violence, language

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