February 1

It’s done!

My Covid project, The Lady of the Valley is finally done and posted wholly over on Wattpad. You can read it here. I will be releasing it ebook form at some point. First chapter below.

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The cemetery stood as an oasis of calm in the middle of madness. Fifty yards beyond, two massive yews stood guard at the path to the little refuge. Beyond those the blend of humanity representing Mystic Valley University mingled, rushed, loafed about, and generally lived their mundane lives. Derek felt quite irritated at himself for feeling intimidated by it.

“Hello, friend.”

The voice startled him. He spun around as a woman inched closer. She had a careful demeanor, but as she leaned forward her thick braid fell over her neck and her backpack tried to slide off her shoulder. She reached out an arm, strung with multiple bracelets, and carefully spread a handful of shredded chicken nuggets on the marble table top a foot from him. Then she backed away again and sat down at the base of a tree with the rest of her lunch. Somehow he hadn’t even noticed her. Which bothered him.

“I like to people watch too,” she continued. “And this is a good spot to people watch. They’ve learned to ignore this place, so they don’t even think about anyone being back here.”

He considered her for a moment. Cocking his dark head at her. Then he picked at the nuggets, though he wasn’t really hungry. He’d never been offered food like this before.

Honestly, he’d never had anyone talk to him while in animal form before. Not directly, and certainly not gently, like this woman. And he wasn’t the only one. Nearby two feral cats sat working on their own nuggets, and while he watched, the woman dumped half a container of fries out for the birds and the squirrel in the tree behind her. They were waiting on her.

He cocked his head again. She was a touch taller than the average woman, on the plump side of curvy, with bright blue-gray eyes and a brighter smile. She moved slowly, so as not to startle the wild-ish life gathered around her. One hand played with her odd colored hair. It was too dark to be blonde, too light to be tow headed, with a definite sheen of red. Amused, he realized if she was a cat, like the ones which gathered at her feet, she’d be a calico.

“Sometimes,” she continued, possibly addressing him, or maybe the cats kissing up for more chicken. “I don’t want to go back into all that chaos. But then, I realize, while I like my peace, I like a challenge too.”

She shot him a grin, tossed out three more nuggets and gathered her trash and back pack. Then she shrugged. “So back into the craziness.”

He watched her walk out past the yew sentinels. Then looked down at the bits of chicken at his feet. Back into the craziness indeed.

Then Derek shook out his feathers and took flight for where he’d left his own bag, hoping he was ready for a little chaos.

 

* * *

 

“Welcome to Campus Culture,” the man at the front of the classroom said. He clicked the tiny remote in his hand and the next slide moved forward, turning his presentation into colored text. “Or as I like to call it, Humaning 101.”

Derek snorted. Much of the class tittered along.

“The administration has lost faith in much of the parenting capabilities of the world, so in this class, which is the only one that every student on campus is required to take, we will cover a number of basic life skills. You might be bored. You might learn something new. But this is a pass/fail class and the only test is whether you show up or not. So enjoy the easy A while you can.”

The instructor smiled at the full room. Click. A photo of the instructor wearing a super hero costume along with four other familiar heroes popped up. “In my normal life, here on campus, I teach in the art department. So I’ve tried to make this class entertaining, at least.”

The door opened and the woman from before entered. Derek straightened in his seat. The instructor gestured immediately to her. “Great timing. This is Astrid, my T.A. If you email me, you will probably be talking to her because she is much more organized than I am and she actually likes computers.”

Derek’s eyes followed Astrid instead of the lecture. The bounce of her teal backpack against her back, the way her braid fell over her shoulder when she leaned over to put the bag on the floor, and especially the way the muscles and veins moved beneath her skin held his attention far more than he was prepared for. He didn’t need a new obsession. He had plenty of trouble as it was.

Gods, he thought, please don’t let Mystic Valley be as interesting as the rest of his life.

* * *

 

Astrid studied the new crop of students while pretending to draw in her sketchbook. The first class was always about the history of Mystic Valley and MVU. The parts the administration was okay with talking about, anyway. Distinguished past. One of the first integrated universities in Kentucky. Yada yada. It seemed like they should be past patting themselves on the back for letting minorities and the womens learn, but MVU was a special place. It was right there in the school’s mission statement. Twice.

Mystic Valley was a special place. It drew a certain kind of person into its tentacles.

Two of the people in the class she recognized. They were the younger siblings of people she grew up with. Most of the others drew no more than a cursory glance. Mostly harmless, she told herself with an inner smile. Thank you, Mr. Adams.

Not too far away sat a peculiar guy who she caught looking at her. His short, dark hair feathered disobediently around a paler than average face. He was handsome, in a bold featured kind of way, the way of movie stars and male models who always ended up as the center of attention. Oh yes, he would definitely draw people to him. Especially with those shocking blue eyes. No man had any business having that combination of perfect skin, glossy hair, and thick fringe of eyelashes over actually blue eyes. His glance and the small twist of his lips offered a suggestion of wickedness that no doubt he wouldn’t live up to.

Because real people came with real flaws and led to real disappointment before they left for some better deal with a blonder woman with fewer opinions and fewer inches on her waist. Astrid had bigger things to do with her life than to skip from one ‘I know I’m handsome’ fuck boi to another. So she forced her attention down, to her page, where a map of the city was taking shape in pencil strokes.

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January 3

Wash Out

Every year I make a goal to write more, publish more, blog more. And every year… Wash out. Sometimes Literally.

There are hundreds of things vying for our attention and so many more give us a more immediate return for our investment. When I spend the day writing I then close the notebook or laptop and nothing seems to have changed. When I spend the day painting my bathroom I see that change every time I walk past. Shit’s hard.

And to be honest, while I’m still in the writing I’m less sure every day that I want to trudge the mess that is the publishing world these days. I mean, I like a challenge too, so I waffle back and forth, never sure how best to put my words in front of people’s faces.

So, how about a reflection? In 2022 I published most of my novel The Lady of the Valley on Wattpad. It’s almost finished, but, well, that’s the handwritten copy of the next chapter in the picture.

I also worked a lot on a new project, The Vampire’s Pet and also released some of it on Wattpad. I’ve written far more than I released. It’s still my favorite WIP child. Writing rules dictates I not post it all online for free. Authors absolutely deserve to get paid for their work, but, honestly I’m not sure how much I care about building a career any more. It is pretty nice to write, then post, then be done with that story and move on to another rather than hoarding pretty, useless tales like a dragon with costume jewelry. I will likely post more over this year, but I plan to finish The Lady first.

I released my first novel, Wolf Heart, entirely on Wattpad as well. I don’t intend, as of right now, to continue the series, so it’s time for it to be free.

2022 also saw the release of Heckin’ Good Doggos from Wet Ink Games. I wrote the Super Good Doggos expansion and I also have adventures in the companion Fetch Quests book.

I’ve already signed on for a few other projects with Wet Ink, including the hotly anticipated Garbage & Glory game, which is similar to D&D from a raccoon point of view.

So there will be more work from me coming out in 2023! This gentle turning of a career path is going places I didn’t foresee ten years ago when I started. Instead of trying to hold it to some sort of set of rules, I’m planning to embrace it as it is and just hold on for the ride. Happy new year to those still hanging around. And I’ll see you on the other side.

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May 11

Veterinary Survival Box Review

We randomly were sent these at the clinic, and I’ve seen people asking about their quality so, here we go.

We got the latest box as a complete random surprise and we loved it! We split the products up among our tech assistants and kennel assistants. This box included:

-A sticker, Yay!!

-This waist bag–WHICH ACTUALLY FIT MY PLUS SIZED SELF!! It has a waste strap and a leg strap to keep it in place, pockets everywhere and even a little snap loop for your tape. I ended up using it as my standard purse, and even used it when I went on vacation last month. The waist and leg strap combo gives a hands free carry that compensates for the horrific lack of pocket that more women’s pants have.

-A Reusable shopping bag

-A Scribe Pad Dry erase badge reel which I use all the time for when my doctors recommend a new Netflix binge, or because they forget the weight I just told them for the pet we are examining. The dry erase stands up great to smudges and wear. I’d been eyeing these for months, so I was very excited to grab it from the box.

-A bag of Lean Treats (because I don’t know about the rest of you, but my dogs work hard at the clinic too, as official puppy socializers.)

-Hydration Boosters (Tasty!)

-And a cute pair of paw print bandage scissors (which as you can see are on theme for my work kit.)

The Veterinary Survival Box runs $50 every three months (with options to subscribe a year at a time, or to buy various past boxes.) I’ve seen people question the pricing, so here’s a cost comparison:

Waist Bag: $22.99, Amazon

Scribe Pad: $8.99, Scribe Pad

Liquid I.V. Hydration Multiplier: $8.98 for a 6 ct (the box had 2), Walmart

-Lean Treats: $3, our clinic price

Bandage Scissors: $15, Vet Tech Stuff

So this box, at least is worth the cost. Seeing as I’ve been looking for a new “box” style kit since Loot Pets stopped shipping, I, of course, subscribed and will see how the next box measures up.

 

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February 20

Gen Con Games for 2022

GenCon 2022 is August 4-7th this year. I will be once again running games for Wet Ink Games at the IGDN room.

Here are the sessions I am signing up to run (final times pending.) This page will change as more things are finalized.

Heckin’ Good Doggos Save Everything

2-6 players, 6+ (Very Kid Friendly)

Play beloved family dogs (or street mutts with hearts of gold) looking to save their humans from terrible perils like men with hats, and stonky cat schemes to take over the world. (Or just the neighborhood, but still!)

This game will cover character creation and multiple adventure scenarios for Wet Ink Games’ Heckin’ Good Doggos. We will be focusing on mundane adventures and challenges from the core rule set.

 

Super Good Doggos Save the World

2-6 players, 6+ (Very Kid Friendly)

When aliens attack these secretly super powered dogs must step up to save the world, but most importantly their families, from strange creatures who want to claim Earth’s resources for their own.

This game will cover character creation and multiple adventure scenarios for Wet Ink Games’ Heckin’ Good Doggos. We will be focusing on the Super Dogs expansion, playing super powered canines saving the world.

 

Never Going Home- Tears in the Sea

Join the German crew of U-19 as they track down the secrets of PROJECT RIPTIDE aboard the cursed U-boat that still carries the flesh of her last crew.

This game will cover character creation and as much of the NGH Mission Folio Tears in the Sea as we can manage in the time block.

 

 

Finally: If you bring pictures of your pets (print or digital) to my Gencon games you will start with extra “experience”. (The +One system uses a playing card system for experience.)

 

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January 30

Squeecore and Serious(TM) Authors

I’m not terribly involved in the writing community much anymore, but one of the people I will always follow is Jason Sanford (who I met when we were both baby authors and I got to read an early version of his novel Plague Birds, which remains one of the best books I’ve read, so go buy it.) Jason writes a comprehensive monthly SF/F genre column and the January edition just came out. One of the major events is the budding genre discussion of “Squeecore”. Jason begins by saying:

“The discussion started after a Rite Gud podcast in which R. S. Benedict and J.R. Bolt offered “A Guide to Squeecore.” When I say the original take felt condescending and simply a way to attack fiction you don’t like, this is what I’m referring to. I agree with Marie Brennan who said squeecore appears to be defined as “books the person using that term doesn’t like.”

In this world of global, instant interconnectiveness the discussion quickly expanded. From Jason’s column:

As Camestros Felapton said in a must-read summary and analysis, according to Benedict and Bolt’s podcast squeecore “tends to be very uplifting and upbeat. It is didactic. It has a young adult fiction tone to it, even when it’s supposed to be for adults. Central characters can feel weirdly young, like they always think and act and feel as though they’re in their late teens or early 20s. They’re kind of inexperienced, naive, still very full of wonder. It has notable influence from films and a lot of influence from mainstream commercial narratives… One such influence being three-act structure screenplays and the ‘save the cat’ style narrative. Central characters can feel like they are intended to be reader-inserts like video-game RPG protagonist.”

I’m starting to feel the weight of my time in the writer world. This debate has been going on for a very, very long time and “Squeecore” is just a new term to set people off.

As a baby writer there seems to be a point in your career where you have to choose between two major paths. (Of course, for some people there is no choice because they know what they want.) Do you want to be A Genre Writer, one of the people who influences the arch of the genre, embraces the concept of literary arts, confronts human truths, advance knowledge…(and win awards)? Or do you want to be The Escapist Author, whose works are usually more profitable, more forgettable, flash in the pan, and tend to appeal to more readers versus more industry people. See, there are two kinds of readers, The Readers and the Reader-Authors. All authors *should be* voracious readers. But a lot of authors who are readers crave a different kind of book, one that has a higher artistic value, be it in concept or prose or theme. Author-Readers are drawn to Books That Change Lives. (And this is a beautiful thing. I love a lot of authors like this.)

Readers aren’t always though. The majority of readers want escapist fiction, entertaining fiction. A lot are expressly looking for stories that are the same because their lives are already changing so much that they find peace in the stability. For my most solid point I present: The Entire Romance Genre (and the long, sexist and frustrating history of completely crapping on it as a “valid” form of reading, something I have been guilty of myself.)

There is a lot of leeway for authors to appeal to both. Neil Gaiman is not a poor, broke, unknown author after all. Speculative fiction (SF/F/H/R) went through a bit there where it was looked down upon to read them. They were considered trash books and gatekeepers, like professional reviewers, literary awards, historians, and college level writing programs, dumped on them. In college I was told I would be a great writer if I dumped the genre trash. Gods love all the beautiful writers out there who have proven in the last 25 years that a book can be a beautiful work of art *and* genre.

So what we see here is that for some reason (higher education crisis, pandemic, wage crisis, housing crisis, political division, threats of civil war, etc.), I can’t imagine why, SOME readers and writers are shifting away from the darker takes. Urban fantasy has been waning for a while. Zombies and post apoc stories are played out. Grimdark has found its audience and isn’t adding many new readers. Story consumers have enough dark dark horrifying awfulness. Their tastes are changing.

Sometimes escapism comes from whimsy. Amusingly enough Jason and I met at World Fantasy Con and the theme was “Whimsical Fantasy”. So we see characters that aren’t stalwart survivors of horrors or magic. We see characters who “feel younger”. Not to mention that YA has not been written just for young adults for the entirely of the time I’ve been doing this. I will be forty two this year and I never stopped reading YA. I run a review blog on it. And I’ve seen some of the stories I loved that got me into reading and writing become more books, movies, t.v. shows and hook new people. The young adults who started on more recent YA like P.C. Cast and Suzanne Collins and Scott Westerfield are most definitely adults now and therefore looking for new stories on new shelves.

The reader base is shifting away from those of us who started fandom on message boards and zines and fan fiction, and toward readers who always had the option of that kind of interconnected, immediately validated fandom.

Personally after trying for 10 years to be that serious writer taking a serious role in the community I burned out, started focusing more on taking care of myself and part of that was writing stories that were less about contributing to the artistic aspects of the genre and stories…I just had fun writing. Some people can do both. I enjoy writing short stories of that style still. I love reading stories like that.

But, honestly…

In the last week I’ve assisted with eight euthanasias at my day job. One of my daughter’s friends moved in with us because he {and his dog) was being heavily emotionally abused by his parents and they were trying to add financial abuse onto it. Being in the vet field we have been busier than ever and while the world quarantined and struggled with isolations and pandemic stress, The people in my field not only never stopped working, we’ve been busier than ever AND taking lash outs because of the anger and panic of societal stress for our current culture. I’m fucking tired, y’all. I’m sad. I’m trying not to be burn out. I held a dog who was nothing but love and joy while the doctor injected her to stop her heart because her leg bones were literally disintegrating from cancer last week. I have heard seasoned doctors say “Oh my god” and “Oh shit, I haven’t never seen anything like that before.” Too many fucking times.

So I revamped my Instagram to share pictures of all things I find beautiful, from street art to architecture to plants and, yes, food. And I buy a lot of erotic romance that I would have dismissed as totally cliche and “well written, but predictable” before. And I write sexy vampires go back to college books. Because while I completely value art that questions and changes the shape of things and confronts deep truths and believe the world definitely NEEDS those stories, we need escapism too. We need happy endings, and whimsy, and main characters who still have a sense of wonder. I need the cat to be saved.

A way, way long day ago, when I was first trying to be a writer for the public I read a quote that I have long since lost, where in an author said that a woman being treated for breast cancer read her books during hospital stays and the books helped her cope. The reader wrote the author to thank her for “being there for her” and to tell her what the books meant to her. And the author said that is why she writes.

Me too. I’m not writing for the bros who want to see the art being taken seriously and tackling big topics anymore. I’m writing for the person who just held another beloved pet as it passed and desperately needs to be outside her own head for a few hours. And there’s nothing fucking wrong with that.

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